It have been 40 days, and all what i can think about is all the challenges that we will face, all the happy and weird things, all the questions and the points, some times i am happy, other i am freaking out, panicing, this year i have a challenge, new life, new job, new places, new home, it is not happening now but it maybe soon or maybe later, no idea.
I look back, i had many other challenges, bad days, weird, awkward, is was terrified, and then it was ok, it was more than ok, then it was bad, c’est la vie, this is life, you have to take the good with the bad and try your best, do your best and just believe it will work out some how, it will.
I am scared of another thing, the idea of plans, i feel it will be ruined, i feel it will be not good, i feel that, i am always scared of that, i worry, sometimes i dont which is a progress but some other times i do.
Oh God, let it be please, allow it to happen, allow me to do that, please.
So for the start or all that, and for the start of a new year and new many things, i have some vows to myself.
I vow to myself that i will always try to be better, i will always try to be the best version of me, to be the strong girl that i am, and that i will have trust in god and myself.
I vow to myself that i will try to deal with stuff as calmly as possible and i will try my best not to lose it over anything.
I vow to believe, to trust and to have faith.
May Allah help me to keep my vow and Thanks Allah for everything.